very very hard

It's very very hard here without other artists. I want to go back. I want to be bored of art talk. I want to swim in other people's projects.
Today, I walked through a student art gallery. It was soooo good. I need I need I need.
Even the online community was adequate, when it was there.
There's going to be mutiny on this ship... against Sandy. I feel like she snubbed me. In Pullman, she needed my help. Then she just ditched me for what? Reputation? Peace? Morals?
No more! I can't take it much longer.